Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Why cant i get the progress package..everyone ard me getting it...argh... not 21 yrs old yet..hmmm...was thinking abt something recently..
why some people got soooo much craps to talk abt and i have none...
why some people hav gooot frens hu can talk crap to but i have one and only thomas...
why some people are soooo humurous but i cant even remember a joke..
why some people are soooo loveable but i am not....
why some people can clique wif others so well but i cant...
why am i feeling so insecure..im not sure...it always been like tat..i reali wish i can find someone hu i can engage a reali deep conversation wif..like a soulmate...sometimes ur boyfriend is not necessary ur soulmate cos it can be of de same gender too...
hope my next life.. i will be someone wif a great sense of humour...charistma..got lots of goot frenz...its so hard to think positive sometimes wen u got nothin goot to tak abt urself..wen u hear people tok abt their goot frens..someone they can confide to..crap wif..its hard to be a loner...people hav no interest to tok to u..think tat u are a made of iron..so cold and hard..
sometimes its not goot to be a perfectionist..people think u are so strong..so determined..not vulnerable..always is mission-possible...do things veri fast...always gif the best..maybe people hu are like tat seldom talk abt their feelings..scared tat people will see them as imperfect..most are also leaders in some way..in the end..perfectionist will end up in the toilet..thinking and crying to themselves..oni the toilet knows them too well..
therefore i hate to be born as a virgo...
i dun noe lehx...its like..always felt a void in my heart..
maybe always stick to myself and thomas too much..
maybe must open my heart a little..
but u dunno whether that someone will be interested to listen to u or not..people always like to impose their ideas on u soo much tat can scare u away..sometimes u wan to open up but u dun dare....perphaps i think too much..
hu reali know the real yanni deep down..hu have so much emotion and love life so much..cherish every fren along her life..gif her best esp in her sports she loves..hope to mak everyone ard her happie..always ready to lend a hand to her dearest frens..cried during dis entire entry...
she just so sad tat she cant tell jokes.. cant mak her frens laugh
so sad tat she has nothin to crap wif her frens...
so sad tat she always has to turn down appointment...
so sad tat always so busi..
so sad tat she dun feel a sense of belonging..
so sad tat people always say tat she look so fierce wen not smiling..
so sad she is a boring person..
so sad she cry easily...
the moment i enjoyed most is wen i am listening to my frens..there is so much to learn so much to cherish..so much to laugh and crap abt...
sometimes wen u r quiet..people think u r stuck up..tat why i left blacks..i cant crap as much as the jc gals..cant 'curry flavour' those seniors..its a team sports..need alot of chemistry..wen people judge u by the 1st impression..its like the impression never change..its stuck in their head forever..i nid a lot of time to 'gel' to a team....but its hard i know..the others are all from the same schools but im the outcast..i tried my veri veri best.. i know i have the potential to excel..i know too well....i miss playing touch soo much..those oval balls..those muddy boots..the million-dollar field....people like us...its hard wen they dun gif u a chance.....
goin to watch da chang jing now....im out..i look forward to tmr...hope it will be a happie day.. hope everyone will be happie too... ciaoxx..
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